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# Chouette

very short time devoted to magic owl   3
--probably for the best-- wait   117
mom worried about owl baby years ago? there's lore   9

two mentions of sex in first five pages. what a book   5

"housekeeping is nothing more than a losing encounter with entropy"   4

husband is a patented seed lawyer   7
well that job's going away after the revolution,,

95% of this narrative is in the mom's head   1-6,12
toxic positivity   10

mom talks about wet playing card. wet card happens   9,10

grandma had ornithosis, disease found in parrots   15
hand scaled like claw   18

- that's not a dog. if I see you on my property again I'll get my gun

- anti-abortion protest   13
yeah, this is California

baby makes noise, cannot sleep   11

a sleepy one-horse town until a rare ore was found in the area   15
mom describes twice divided origins of good and bad, the neighborhoods "gleaming/gloaming", the good and bad parents.
standing in weird classist prejudices and not challenging them the whole time   15-16
okay, no, mom really has internalized this disgusting view of imperfect people as not human   17-18

- old song of prophecy reverberates and messes up violin playing   25
- i am bad and it will corrupt my child   25

- fateful day at the zoo   16-17
- owl trapped in tiny cage; you will be one if you keep speaking up   17
- turned back, bit, hit by zookeeper, hit by father   17
- grandma runs away with baby into darkness   17
    S taking baby, fleeing Kent Hovind
    S beasts are of the moon; Journey to the West — owls may be literally but it's also meant very figuratively here
- mom forgets what happened, grandma 'must have' become a tree   18

- looking out towards the horizon thinking something having to do with pioneer spirit   19
- grandma-in-law keeps misshapen wild birds but doesn't care for them correctly   20
- emphasis placed on how grandma- and granddad-in-law are both really fake. their love of birds is fake. their farmer appearance is fake. their farm feels like another world which has been built differently from 'reality'   20
- family tradition of throwing siblings into deep end of swimming pool   31
- moms protect kids in superstitious ways that don't match reality — grapes but not pool   22
- mom vaguely disappointed grandma-in-law got rid of the trees   19

- metaphor is freedom: no logic, rules, or facts can bind me down   21
mom is a fucking anarchist. when reality limits her Freedom she changes reality
god this book could have an ideological color swatch

I wonder where the name "Oshetsky" came from
that might reveal some really interesting things about the characters
Oshetsky
* Russia  * Poland  * Ukraine
* Olschefsky
* Romania  * Eastern Europe  * Eastern European Jews
ok to me I don't care whether someone is Jewish, I'm more interested in what region they moved in from because the interesting geopolitical stories emerge there

- violinist sisters from Czech Republic   24

- I put away Mozart, take out Anna Clyne's Dance, and play until I'm perfectly free   26

- honey let's go away for a few days   27

- secret aborter   23
mom never says what relative secret aborter is married to
which... might have an ulterior reason.
- terrible lesbian love triangle   23,112



- thicket gnarled and tangled   66

- godmother's story returned to throughout book   117
- first met as 'childhood crush', then 'lived together in wood'   ??
- godmother took over old abandoned room   67
childhood room or copy of current room? not totally clear.
_sounds like_ childhood room
- returned right after the moment marriage went downhill   117
- I would give anything to take you to an owl nest house where you could belong, Chouette, but I've forgotten the way   87

- the Bird of the Wood "taught me to trust the sound of my own voice"   18
- I could fly in those days; I could hear the earth's heartbeat   98
- sounds of nature as songs   97-98

- Chouette needs a mother or she needs to die   67
- I'm afraid of you. you disgust me. I'm your mother. I love you.  ??

- in the space for the other parent I wrote owl   70
- though my mother-in-law shouted about the father they let me go   70

we spent a third of the book on pregnancy and two thirds will be about Chouette being a child   73

- the poison of mother-love   74

- mom and dad, we flew across and switched opinions almost metaphysically   76

- S Serengeti/veldt as bleak treacherous place   79
what's that other story called with the projector room? The Veldt?

- put baby in stock pot to clean constant watery poo out; dad is terrified   80

- no one thinks you're worth the trouble to keep alive   81
- S L'homme naît bon, c'est la societé qui le corrompt (Rosseau)

- recurring idea of every food animal having been a baby once   83

- S your birth has severed our blood connection   84

- S baby monastery   87

- dreaming about going to family gathering and other members not getting upset about baby   89

- mom gets tired, leaves baby crying, and goes to home studio covered with vines   90
- I'm going truant to Berlin until I'm free   90

- S is breaking instruments performance art?   98-99
I mean, it is, you're not wrong. it takes an expert to make something so basic part of good art though
- they're new notes. they're your notes   99
- the times are different every time   100

- baby is oddly specific about what pieces are okay. Romantic composers good, Bach bad   100

- S Bluebird's wife abandoned at home with bone for key   101

- baby spins around, spots gerbil, and glides over and kills it   102
- mom I can't find Peanut   103

- uncle the chiropodist dreams up weird scheme to fix "her condition" through medical science   107
ok but how?
> there are treatments   111
- medical journals specifically about owl babies, apparently   108
- dad looks at every drug, even a couple that don't make sense   138
- dad: it's as if you believe she's subhuman   170

> What if she is meant to be exactly who she is?   108
what does the word meant mean. who meant this?

- you scream and you kick him in the jaw   109

- you're lucky; most children grow up to hate their parents but owl-children never grow up and will always need their mothers   110

- this dog will teach her life skills   111
- dog eaten   111

- wood shrews in the bathroom? nice. let's let in some mice so we have more to eat   114
- vines; precisely the home you need; I barely need to encourage the natural order of things   115
so mom found 'the way back' I see

- you see the turkey; I brought my axe   123

- secret friend is hot   112-113
- dad is not because he never came out of the garage apartment   113
- ~3 years before, dad says sorry for emptiness in relationship but it's not helping, he can't really put it back together   116
- secret friend eventually writes back   115
- she first-sighted me on the day I met my husband   119

- lesbian noblewomen sending letters   116
this is questionably historical. lesbians probably existed then but look how angry people got at King James

- it is in small slips of thought too short to be called decisions that our lives take shape   118
- new thrill of not knowing what happens next   119
what a weirdly post-structuralist book

- every room was unsuitable to show her except the bedroom, oh no,,   120

- secret lover once lived on hippy small farm   121
this has significance but I don't yet know what to say

the Lady praises mom but still afraid of baby so what's going on here   121
- gives me the strength to care and love   127
- all of my doubts grow small   121
- lock the doubts in a safe with a bone key   122

- I take you out at night   122

- it's a wonder that any woman agrees to be a mother; my death and disembowelment   127

- do you want me to gut him?   117-118
tiny is weirdly violent. each one of these escapes is a decision about whether to kill
- 'I'm pregnant and I have to leave' okay time to kill her   128
tiny is like. intolerant of normal babies. owl babies only. owl nationalism

- day of tears and blood   127
- she didn't die. she just got a nasty rip   130
- Lady has to drive to hospital with one hand   130

- mom is terrified wondering if she should never have encouraged Chouette to kill   131-132
- can I teach her moderation between extremes?   132
- should her power be used to fight those who wish to kill her?   132
- what if social workers come and take me away?   133
- I'm a terrible mother   137

- I learned to stop apologizing to others about your unexpected behaviors   142
- to keep still enough to see her   145
- the trill of nature, it's how Chouette sounds when she's happy   144

- I looked at my girlfriend. i was afraid to grow up to be an owl   149
- eventually I couldn't quite stand her; that was how I met my husband   150

- swim therapy   138-139
> It helps nonconforming children learn to conform   138
> Our girl is not an animal ... grotesque stories   145
- they're all crying including the mothers   140
- coach tells off dad   140-141
- what are you doing to that child??   174

- that you'll make friends, and that your future opportunities will expand beyond that of apex predator   146
- other parents try to block baby from special school   145-146
- are you sure she crushed the chicks, and not the students? she slices cleanly   147

- Chouette goes to another school; mom has to sign another incident report   151
- lacerations? what bureaucracy!   152

- tough love therapy   153
- mothers are always the problem   153
not for tiny they weren't. what irony
- trust the process   154
- baby is vibrating furiously, then goes and smashes instruments. baby and mom glare at each other about ready to kill each other   155

> there are treatments   111
- we won't be here to take care of her forever. we're going to die one day   157

- beauty is in front of us in the most circumscribed spaces   158
thanks Jevil

- christian mother invites baby to church to meet pastor   160
- somehow baby is calm   169
- mom, driven crazy without community, heads to church   161
- baby's mood shifts wildly on baptism stage but everything is okay   164
- then other woman's driving startles baby and she attacks   164-165

- dad is hardly caring about the science of the treatments now   166

- brain crafted by technology?   174-178

- dad: I hate it when you shut down like this   167
- I'm a box that needs to be opened with a hammer   168
- dad: why do you not listen to me, do you want power   169
- dad: why do you lie to me   179
the only thing he's said that's fair

- Chouette caught in bird net   182
- mom passed out on painkillers   186

- baby goes to some kind of tutor and starts writing letters   186-187
- mom catches scent of probably just unusual cleaning products and gets paranoid about secret doctors   186-187

- dream?   188-213
- you're bad for me, mom   195
- mom: is my existence nothing more than a language approximation device   199
- baby not fixed by baptism, fixed by getting rescued from the pool   201,210

- Chouette eats father's right eye   217

> I want what's happening to be the real thing   222
> this other kind of life ... where all the magic and music has drained out of me   223

- our child is in danger   222

- you'll like the doctors ... I can't take this any longer   224-226

- the doctors get Stonewalled   227
> Life is, in fact, a battle   227

- through to the thicket of darkness   228-229

- actually going to different towns feels like a religious revelation   231-232

- I see her growing, in volume   233
- she knows where she's going   234
- didn't look back   235
- the earth wants me to turn into a tree   234
oh gosh this is like. Girl From the Other Side.
the generations turn over and you turn into trees
- for nothing   235
this is the only part that doesn't make sense. isn't this good?
- if only you were hiding behind a curtain   235-236

it ends with confusion; it ends in the middle   237



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